I think, that at the end of it all, I can trace the source of my renewed inspiration to my cousin-in-law, who is up at 5am running a security corporation 6 days a week and studying for his master's degree during whatever remaining time he has left, all the while also being a dutiful husband and father. I thought, if he can get up every Monday and say, "Productive week!" (no, seriously, that's actually what he tweets/FBs/emails/BBM status'), then I can be just as positive.
I've been told that my tweets lately have been really depressing, and I can't say that I disagree. The fact is, though, that I've always been the type of person who vocalises my displeasure or stress, and Twitter provides me with such an easy outlet to vent that I do it all the time without thinking. Throw in the week from hell at work and all the tweets you'll get from me are about me bitching.
I haven't been that bad, though. It's been a tough couple of weeks due to a few things, but it's also been good. I've managed to expunge a few things from my life that I don't want around, and I didn't realise how much has been cleaned up that I can only hope will help me in the new year. It's easier now, and soon I'll hopefully be able to get things where I want them. But if they don't get there, that's okay, too.
In between those things, I've actually had some pretty good times, and in rounding up 2011, I think I need to remember those and hang on to them so that they're not clouded over by the bad experiences.
I've learned (again, it took a long 3 years to learn this) that I need to let things go and be more flexible. I've revived an old phrase for 2011 and I'm using it as my mantra: love, peace and empathy. I always could relate to Cobain.
